30.12.2009

Today is a day which full of a lot of worries, worries about you.
You didn't reply my msg since 12++pm for hours, and I was nearly losing my mind. I've never ever been that worried—I have been scared by you once. I even thought of contacting your sister and asked her if anything happened to you.
2 messages and n times of missed call, you didn't even reply me once. Finally, I was relieved, because you finally answered my call.

You thought you need to talk to me. Then I was asked :"Are we suitable?"
I didn't know what to say. End up, we've compromised. We've decided to cool down for few days.
"How long will be the 'few days'?", that's what I was thinking.
I told you I can't bear to end our relationship, but then you said you can.
So I was thinking :"Should we do this at this moment? Should we quit like this?"

I've been thinking about everything about us.
Places that we have been to, things that we have done together, sweetest words that we have told to each other, our promises to each other, joyful times we have shared together, and of course, the grey moments we have been through......

You're ever asked me :"How long will we be lasted? I will never say 'break up' until you say it."
I grinned and answered with appreciation :"Hmm...then we will be lasted for a very long time."
There was once I saying this :"From year 2009 to infinity."
There was once in my dream, you're holding my hand and we're walking around in shopping centre, and you told me it won't only be a dream.
There was a time we saying gonna travel together in someday.

But now I ask myself :"Are these gonna be just a say-so?"
Few days later, everything will be decided. I'm waiting for it.